So in my last post I talked about how nothing is going to get handed to you and how I spent all of last year waiting for the year to get better and how it took me a whole year to realize, it wasn’t going to happen. When I figured out it wasn’t going to happen, I figured out why.
Because I didn’t make it happen!
I’m not going to go through the whole thing again, you can check out the last post HERE.
So that’s when I decided on making 2016 an awesome year. Now to start things off you cant just wing an awesome year and think it will happen. It has to be planned out, thought out, and put into action. Hints the last 10 days of the year. Planning out how to make an awesome year happen. The conclusion??? Boy do I have my work cut out for me. lol 🙂
First things first, SKC.com is going to get a face lift. Things are going to be a little different around here for a while. Not the look of SKC (well the pictures going to change) but the content will be different then in the past. I think lol. To be honest I’m just kind of going with the flow right now. There’s so much to conquer this year that I am going to be posting on so many topics even my head will probably spin. Some days are going to just be pictures, some inspirational things, some so random it’ll leave a smile on your face and wondering where we’re gonna go next! 😉
I’m also going to be getting a face lift. It’s taken me 28 years to get to the point where I am comfortable in my own skin and I don’t care what people have to say about my sense of style, dress, writing, and what not. One thing I’ve learned in the last few years, the less you care about what others think, the happier you’ll be. Let me explain…
I have had many issues with different parts of my life and my person over the years. People would tell me how they thought I was to big for a person my height and how to lose weight. I cared what people thought about the way I looked and would do things to try and lose weight in the end failing horribly and hating my existence even more. People would tell me how they thought the clothes I wore were weird and that I had no style. So I would try to fit in and stay with the current trends, breaking not only my self confidence when I couldn’t fit into the clothes everyone else was wearing but also my bank account trying to, as the phrase goes, “Keep up with the Jones”. Again no matter how hard I tried I still couldn’t get either of these right and would end up horribly failing again.
People would get on to me about not having a life plan, so I let someone pick one for me, went to college for it, and hated every minute of it. I ended up dropping out and moving to a completely different state only to try to go back to college again after a few years and going for what everyone told me would be a “responsible and lucrative” career. Only to end up hating it and dropping out again. Here we are ten years after graduation and I not only have no degree were working on round three of college. Granted at this time I’ve pretty much told everyone to shove it and I’m going for what I want to do and what interests me, not what people think I should do or expect me to do. And I’m loving every minute of it.
I’ve also told people to mind their own business about my writing, my weight, and my dressing habits as well. Do I share my information on social media. You best your sweet patootie I do. I don’t give a dang what anyone has to say about it either. After not giving a damn about what anyone has to say about my life I noticed one thing. I finally had an opinion about my own life. Strange realization right? Not if you really think about it.
To many times we worry so much about what others think about us and our lives that we tend to place our own thought on the subject in the back ground not paying any mind into what we think about our own lives. When in reality, its about what you think, not others. So when I started caring less what others thought and more about what I thought I finally hit that point of no return. Where I made my own damn decisions and people either accepted it or moved on. Because really, I don’t have time to waste on people who only want to be around me if I’m only a certain weight, If I only wear certain things, if I only act a certain way, If I never speak up and just go with the masses. I have three words for people like that. STM!
STM! = Screw The Masses!
So what happens when you finally start to realize what your opinion is about your situation. I don’t know! That depends on you, lol. Probably not the answer you were expecting but I’m not God. I don’t know what your life is like, I don’t know your situation, or what’s going on around you and who you surround yourself with. I can tell you what it did for me though.
I went from 300 lbs. to 225 lbs. and I’ve kept it off for a year. I lost weight because I wanted to get healthy and I wanted to feel better about myself not because people were telling me I should. I am about to start another program that will help me get more into shape and I cant wait!
I changed the way I dressed and it not only helped me in my relationship with God it helped me in my relationship with myself. I have so much more confidence in myself and that shows in the fact that I had a conviction and I stuck to it. Do I judge others for their manner of dress? Absolutely not! What works for me doesn’t necessarily work for anyone else. Am I judged for the way I dress? Yep. And I could care less. That’s the beauty of it, when I stopped caring what others thought about how I was dressing I started caring about how I thought I was dressing. In case your wondering I’ve adapted a more modest dress code and I try to cover up as much as possible.
No one told me I had to dress this way so don’t go on some “Bible Thumper” nonsense rant. It happens more often then one would think. I cant tell you how many times I’ve gotten the “Oh! you’re one of those people.” or the “What are you, a Mormon or something?” comments! First off what does that even mean? and No, I’m not but if I was would it even matter? Anyways, long story short, I’m totally confident in the way I dress now and I’m actually more fashionable in my opinion now then I ever was to begin with. Its amazing how much more freedom I have now then I did before. I’m going to be going into that at a later date (woo hoo post idea!) so I’m gonne move on from here.
I went from having a crappy outlook on life and no friends to having an awesome outlook on life and amazing friends. I got rid of people who didn’t give a dang about me and found people who love and accept me as I am as a whole. And I couldn’t have asked for anything better!!
After last year being the way it was and me coming to the realizations I did we find ourselves back at the “How are you going to make this year awesome?” part of the post. Did I get a little side tracked there? Not really, I said all that above because I had to figure out all of that stuff before I could get to the point were I am now realizing I have to get off my butt and make my year awesome.
So what do I have planned? Living my life to the best I can. Which means getting off my butt, getting stuff accomplished, getting the show on the road and getting out there. I can not wait to share everything with everyone and I hope you will all stick around for the journey ahead. Heres to road trips and fashion shows, awesome adventures and amazing pictures, a deeper realationship with God and my friends and family. Heres to being more open and honest, to sharing more of the love that I’ve found for life and myself with others, and heres to being famously me and not what people expect me to be. Heres to the ups and downs because lets be real, its not all going to be rainbows and unicorns! Heres to you and me darlin’!
It’s 2016 and this is going to be our best year yet. Not because we waited around for it to happen, but because we made it happen.
Not quite where I am in your self discovery journey? You’ve got plenty of time hun, but its not gonna happen until you want it to. Also, you’re gonna have to work your butt off and there is a perfect saying in this case, “Fake it till ya make it!” sounds dumb but it works trust me. Take your time but live your life as your doing it.
Blessings to you all in this new year and don’t forget to check back in on the awesomeness of 2016!